A silent whisper...

Why is it always that when it seems like I've found someone or something that I can be happy with one day suddenly get out of hand. It's like I can't seem to hold on to the things I long for. The harder I try to push things forward it just ends up bringing me down more and more. It's like it's my happiness that keeps on bringing sadness in my life. It seemed like a second chance for me at first, but as time goes on, it becomes just a reminder that I can never be happy in life. It's feels like everything is being taken away from me and all I can do is just watch. It's so mortifying that I cannot do a thing to prevent these things from happening. It's like what I've learned from past experiences are of no use since I cannot use it to stop things from repeating itself...


I feel like I'm not making sense anymore.... I don't know... I'm just really confused right now...