See the world as it is

These past few days (well... weeks actually =P) I've been... well... "not my usual self" (although since these things happen to me quite frequently these days... it's not more of like my usual self ;) ). I've been having a hard time trying to put up a decent effort in everything I've been working on, namely sketches (mga human features ek-ek or basically a portrait of a specific girl that I will hide behind the name of "friend"... what a screen name!), music for songs i've recently written, and of course... MY THESIS!!!.

Well, after days of pondering, net surfing and basically just bumming out, i came about a blog post of a NOT SO POPULAR musician and a man that is NOT THAT MUCH RESPONSIBLE for shaping opm music today... let's hide him under the name of JP. There was a part there where he also had a realization about life.

‘We do not see the world as it is. We see it as we are’

Reading this, I came to realize that I've already changed so much these past few years... well, concerning work ethics most notably... so much has changed but ironically I never noticed it up until now. Basically, before I used to work on things on a fast pace. Everytime I wanted to finish my work quickly. I seldom wanted to end my day with work still remaining, or if the project takes about 4 days to finish normally, I wanted to finish it in three days or less. Maybe I've been doing this to free up more time for myself. Just to separate my work from family and friends I did this for so long.

Maybe some of you think that this type of work ethic is alright. Maybe considering practicality nowadays, this would be the best option. But now for me I realized that by doing so the work doesn't really come out "complete". It will lack something everytime. Since I rushed things so fast, I always failed to consider the unpredictability of things. But what do I mean here? I always considered what people wanted today, what they craved for today. I never considered what they would like tomorrow... (gets? I guess I'm just rambling again, but that's just the way that I can put it into words.) Anyway, since I separated my work from my friends too much that my projects showed only one side of the world. Basically it was just my ideas there. In other words it was just a one dimension effort.

So now I found the reason why I'm always taking my time on working on project. I want it to come out perfect... if not maybe even near perfect

I just hope that it doesn't take too much time to complete that I come out late! haha