Escape the Hurt

These past few days seem to be quite confusing to me... at times I feel happy since it was my birthday... and other times I feel very down due to some things I found out. It's really confusing on which feelings I should focus on. I mean my birthday only passes once a year so I should be happy when whis time comes... on the other hand I got so attatched to someone so much that when it became evident that things can not go on what I expected it felt like the world fell down on me. This is really affecting how I live day by day. Yet still... these events somehow inspired me to write songs again. Since this past Monday I was able to belt out some new riffs for the song I wrote to go along with. Should I go the easy way or the hard way....