a lot of bothersome non-thesis questions..

... a lot of non-thesis related questions are bugging me right now... but these questions are the ones I have asked myself since i forgot when... a long long time ago... but I'm not that old yet so it's not that long ago... anyway this statement quite bothers me, "we are made in the image and likeness of god"... why am I so bothered by this? well if that was the case, then why are there so many imperfections in us? I mean that since WE are made in god's image and likeness, aren't we supposed to be perfect in the way that god is perfect to? also on the same note, if god was perfect as our faith describes him to be as, then why are his creations imperfect? isn't it supposed to be that when one is perfect then his/her creations/inventions supposed to be perfect as well? but don't get me wrong, speaking my mind about this argument doesn't mean that I am an anti-christ, anti-church or anti-anything, and also, I am not questioning my faith but I am just questioning all those which are taught to me ever since I was a child. In short I am just finding answers within me.

Another thing that bothers me is these things about the supernormal/paranormal or whatever people call them. Are they real or are they just anothet piece of shit fed into our lazy minds? Well, I for one believe in these things... but not all of them.. especially some filipino folklore like the tikbalang, kapre etc.etc.etc. for me these beings are only bullshit, bullcrap, shit or whatever you want to call them, as they are only a figment of one's creative imagination... but for the case of ghosts and the undead, that's another thing...
Experiences when I was still a child kind of solidify my belief in such things. Some of them wierd... and one was such that morbid of a thought that I dare not try to recall it (just think of a very morbid view of a person... then multiply it a hundred times... that's how morbid the scene was...) that it kind of left me scarred inside my head. But the other experiences were so wierd since I saw people without faces... I froze there when I saw it... so basically it was scary but it was more wierd.. hehehe

As for the undead I am left with a lot of questions... a believe in vampires... well not that much.. but still a little part of me believes in such beings. But given their condition, immortality that is, no one has proved yet that such beings do exist... because face it, no one has lived that long enough to prove this... as only an immortal can only know a fellor immortal... (or am I just spewing a lot of senseless things once again).

I've only realized this one until recently... I can see events that are about to happen in my future inside my dreams... the only thing is that I only remember events that are so insignificant... what a waste of ability... If only I can remember a dream in which I am taking an exam or somthing so I can prepare accordingly... hehehehe... in the same subject, just this week I dreamed about the ghost I saw when I was still a kid... the one with no face... then I realized that that person was me some seven years ago or so... then that wierd scene from when I was a kid finally had a meaning. Since at that time I felt confused with everything around me that I was left searching for my own identity. So basically that explains why there was no face on the beings which I saw...

Or maybe my mind is playing tricks on me? Well.. maybe I'll dream of the answer to this question...