Regrets.. lots and lots of regrets..

Finally, I'm finished doing the volume 4 of my thesis book... well, technically I'm finished doing the part that I'm just going to submitt tomorrow. I plan to add more for the final submittion.

Anyway, sobrang lakas ng ulan kanina! For the first time pumasok ung tubig sa kwarto ko! hanep! Sobrang lamig... pero sobrang nakaka-asar, since hindi ko napansin agad na nababasa na pala ung ibang gamit ko sa kwarto... hehehe.

As I was checking out the new channel (HERO)... I can't help but notice one thing. Bakit pag ang anime eh pinalabas dito, it seems like na parang naluluma ito. And another thing, sobrang naasar ako nung nakapanood ako dito last saturday night. You see, I was expecting that all shows here would be in japanese with subtitles... with the extent of some being shown in english language.. but NO! everything was in tagalog! Shit! ... it's not that I hate our own native language, it's just that when they dub the show, the staff use voice actors that have no talent at all... or do their voice overs at studios that have bad acoustics... and imagine your fave dramatic or epic anime being shown in tagalog.. db parang nakakaasar na panoorin? The only anime that is still good to watch in tagalog are the comedy ones.. kasi ayos yung mga hirit nila dun... Well, wala na akong magagawa pa dun.. ganun talaga ang format na gusto nila eh... at least mapapanood ko na ung mga na-miss ko na episodes ng NARUTO! hehehe

Then last saturday we had yet another wasted day... why? Kasi naman as usual wala ulit kaming natutunan sa Professional practice.. kasi naman sobrang boring pakinggan si mam... Then there was AS... wait.. what AS? hahahahaha at least dumating si montana.. pero parang wala naman siya... so useless din ang pagpasok niya... And then lastly we had our recitation sa TAR, grabe sobrang nakakaasar... kasi ba naman, kung kailan alam ko yung sagot sa mga pinagtatatanong ni Parong eh hindi ako tinatawag, tapos kung kailan wala akong idea sa pinagtatatanong niya eh saka pa ako tatawagin.. shit naman yan.. kaasar.. pero kahit papano after nun eh nanlibre si Bel since birthday niya kasi the day before. (Oi lucas! ung pix natin dun pasend!)

Then this afternoon, I read a quote sent to me by a friend of mine. It goes like this:

Love is like the last item on display. You have to hold it and think really hard
if you really want to have it or just leave it there, otherwise, you might
regret seeing someone take that last piece you gave up...

Upon reading this, I came to realize that this was true. I waited and waited until the time came that I cannot have the girl that I love... and what's worse is that I never learned from my mistake... It hapened once... then again... and then again... if it happens one more time then I'm going to be crazy! (joke lang.. hehehe) But it really feels cold inside everytime it happens. In the end, all I can have are just regrets...

Enough of the hearty talk... Ayos ang araw ko ngayon! dami akong na-accomplish! Una, ung sa thesis ko nga. Then sulat sulat ng kanta (I seem to write many things when I feel hurt inside.. feel na feel kasi ang sinusulat.. ang daming ideas..) And lastly.. nakapa ko na rin sa wakas ung ANG ATING ARAW ng Dicta License! woohoo!! sarap! tapos nakapa ko na rin ung PHOENIX ng typecast! sobrang fulfilled! and yet... I still feel empty inside...