Left Behind

This time you say goodbye

I watch you lay to sleep and

when everything's all gone

Will tears fall down when I cry?

Did you hear me when I called your name?

Did you heed me when I grieved your fate?

This came too fast now I'm all alone

With every breath I take it's hard to swallow

emotions that I swore I'll never show

but now you're gone and I am all alone

Well it's your time when you're done

In the end it's me you leave behind

The time we spent last night

We longed for tomorrow and

now everything's all gone

left a bitter taste in me

Well it's your time when you're done

In the end it's me that's left behind

With everything I know all gone

Will things matter if I leave it all

With this black room closing in

Will this be the end if you're not here?

My world is over once again.

The Suffering

I pull the lines of destruction

away from the tides of redemption

I'm washed away from the shore

drowning myself in your memory
My whole life is flashing

events stare me in the eyes

With you right in front of me

but this life seems to be fading
I hate this life that the light brought upon

I hate all the ties that surround us

with my last breath coming

how will I pull through?
This suffering is choking me

When will I be free from the society?
Now I'm running from the end

now I'm beaten and drowning

Stupid survey....

[ ] I like skinny jeans <- Metalheads were the ones who started wearing these types of jeans... History check please...
[ ] Music is life. <- emo is not the only music genre out there.. FYI
[ ] I write poetry/song lyrics. <- is Ozzy Osbourne writes his own material... does this make him emo? I THINK NOT!
[ ] My hair covers part of my face <-but my style was more of the grunge type... does that count as emo?!
[ ] I wear band shirts <- if I wear a Metallica shirt... does that make me emo too?
[ ] I know who Jeffree Star is. <- Do you know the word die? haha
[ ] I wear/wore converse. <- Basketball players were the ones who started wearing converse.. or chucks..
[ ] I wear/wore vans. <- adidas and converse (sometimes nike) lang to dude!
[ ] i wear eyeliner
[ ] I have my lip pierced(or gettingsoon) <-that means DAVID DRAIMAN of DISTURBED is EMO?!!! OMFG!!!!! haha
[ ] I listen to Saves The Day,Chiodos, or Gym Class Heroes.
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[ ] I'm in a band. <- are all bands emo?!!!
[ ] My AIM screen name hasan x in it
[ ]I understand that My ChemicalRomance is not emo. <-yes! they are far from emo!
[ ] I also understand that Green Dayis not emo. <-who ever said that they WERE even emo?
[ ] I know what mosh means. <-connection sa emo?
[ ] I sit in corners often. <-so that makes students seated at the corner of the class emo.... haha[ ] I dislike MTV. <-I dislike the sh!tty videos sometimes shown there... not the chanel as a whole
[ ] I take pictures of myself a lot. <-dude.. that makes you vain... not EMO!! haha
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[ ] I am lost without a cd player/myiPod/mp3 <- still a dumb basis...
[ ] I have/had thick rimmed glasses. <-so that makes people who's vision are impaired emo... ahhhh...
[ ] I have no issues with bi/gay people <-only AGGRESSIVE ones.. haha
[ ] I hate the president. <-don't care
[ ] have/had a mohawk.
[ ] I've worn black nail polish.
[ ] I hate my mom. <-this is really wierd...
[ ] I love/like slipknot <-SLIPKNOT is NOT EMO!!!!
[ ] I hate where I live. <-then move somewhere else... jack a$$
[ ] Black is a great color <-black is the absense of color... stupid! haha
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[ ] Right now I am listening to music
[ ] know what hxc and sxe means.
[ ] Myspace=Love <- are you gay or something? since when did myspace become emo?
[ ] Hot Topic doesn't scare me. <-why should it?!! stupid... haha
[ ] I wear studded belts. <- diy punks were the ones who started this one...
[ ] I have had a body part signed by aband. <-my genitals... JOKE! haha
[ ] I've cried while listening toDashboard Confessional.
[ ] For Guys: I have kissed anotherguy. <-that my friend is called GAY! haha
[ ] For Guys: I have worn girls jeans.
[ ] I have/ had dyed my hair black or a dark color <-yes.. i dyed it from black.. to black!! hahaha joke
[ ] My closet is mostly filled withblack or dark clothes. <-my closet is rather filled with guitars! san ka pa?!
[ ] I cry a lot <-buy yourself a lolipop
[ ] I write on myself. <- I like to note that PAPER IS CHEAP! Try buying one...
[ ] I have been called emo before.
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Times Total By 3 To Get How Emo You Are


Checking all options would make one 129%emo... is that possible?

Then if one is that EMO then he/she should just hang himself.... joke!

Life is Beautiful (shitty sometimes... but still beautiful) Enjoy it!

Sentimentality

This might look like just an ordinary movie ticket to some of you (well... maybe it does reallylook so ordinary to me also), but for me this is a very special ticket.

Why? Since this is the very first thing I bought when I officially finished college (yeah it's over the hedge... so what? haha). After a tad more than five years in college, this was my reward to myself..... an expensive as hell movie ticket, but well worth it considering the comfort inside.

People really put so much sentimental value on the oddest of things (including me!). It just so much proves that we Filipinos value everything that comes our way.

"What others consider as trash, some consider as treasure."

Casino Royale

After watching Casino Royale yesterday, I can now say that James Bond is my new idol! Or should I say the Young James Bond is my new idol?

After watching this film, Daniel Craig really lived up to his word that we will really see a different Bond in this flick. Indeed, as I saw the young Bond, a brash young agent who gets easily attached to his "girl". *spoiler alert* Why only girl? he nearly got married here! *spoiler end* Basically, the James Bond here is still full of emotions.

Basically it's a really great movie to watch. You'll love it!

In Serenity

I'll be a witness to the hatred you supress
Victim of the mind can you still move forward?
Direction moves backwards, is this the only way?
The lies behind it, my enemy is you.

Give them space beneath
Given the unseen mind

In serenity
I'll know then we move forward.
These fallacies I've heard before

Your voice hits the point of, what falls shall rise.
We'll prepare the path, enemy I'll find you
Your voice hits the point of, those who rise shall fall
We'll prepare mind, befall the ones who know.

In serenity
I'll knowthen we move forward
These fallacies I will unfold

We're bound to these chains
What we fear we hate
You must stand up for the changes you hate
I will unfold

As Devils May Cry

As we are watching the damnation of this civilization
The cries of those below resonate in unison
As also devils may cry

Despise this evil
You sell salvation
This one is for you
You're not the answer

How long until we die?
Die from the tyrany
How much blood must be shed til you are done?
How much must die today?

Ignore the lies
Must we be this so blind?
Address the lives
As devils may we cry?

We are not far from the last ones
How can you ignore the cries?

When darkness starts to fall
We rise above it all
The price we have paid is so much to know
No more of your lies
No more we say
no more

Acceptance to React

What have we learned?Will all of our wounds healThe hatred has us allWith emotions displacedThough I may want to make you seekThe answer's that may all have gone through meThough I may want to make you seekThe answer's the reason I will find a wayBrought from the worstThought I will fight todayDays move on without a sightof what we want today Acceptance to reactThe right time's when you actExpecting you to knowWith every action you doTurn!Acceptance to reactThe right time's when you actTurn away for nowYou're worth more when around





Finally! My Writting slump is over! haha

Annoying... just plain annoying

I'm really annoyed by the way the other female border here is acting up.

Really I AM!!!

For her to be mad about something she (and her stupidity) caused and blame it on me, who would not be annoyed.

And the audacity for her to shout at me. I should have the license to shoot that b*tch.

Oh how I miss the comfort of my own home....

A mind boggling question

manila, oh how I miss manila

oh how I miss manila....

and it's uber polluted skies...

it's traffic infested roads...

the constant 5 minute heavy downpour of rain...

the constant quarells I hear from our neighbors...

the full parking at malls during weekends...






and of course....




I miss watching on a wide screen cable tv...

unlimited internet access...

wi-fi internet access...

access to my musical gear...

gourmet food...

a nice soft bed to lie down to...

my ride that I love to drive everyday...

and the sight of my organized chaotic room.

oh how I miss manila.

World Battle of the Bands Philippine leg

The finals of the Philippine leg of the World Battle of the bands was held yesterday at the SM Mall of Asia. Coincidentally, I was there at the time so unexpectedly I had the chance to watch the finals.



The gig was free (which has it's good and bad points..), so I got to the venue an hour before the event and got "the best seat" in the house (basically the best seat in the house for me is not inside a mosh pit... it is somewhere where I have a clear view of the whole stage and a comfortable seat far far away from the pit).



But then these bitch-ass-gay-looking-tight-spandex-sporting-bouncers started to tell people to get out of the venue first and come back again later when the gig is starting already.



What the hell is up with that?!!! where's the point in going early to a gig to get the best spot? If they let us in that early in the first place, then why in the hell would they tell us to go out again?? I mean, where's the point in doing so?? So rather than suffocate to death while squeezing through the tens of thousands of spectators, I opted to just ditch the place.



So starting at this moment... I promise myself never to go to gigs like these.... unless I'm part of the gig!